miracles

Let me start off by saying I believe everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for us and we need to have faith that everything will turn out alright in the end. just like many people, we have had many struggles and trying times, but looking back, most of them have been blessings in disguise. When Izaiah was born so early, I was angry. I wondered what he had done to deserve all the pain he was going through. Now, I see the big picture. If he hadn't been born so prematurely then he wouldn't have been so sick and needed surgery. If he hadn't had surgery, then we never would have known he had the birth defect malrotation of the intestines. Years down the road, we could have lost him in an instant. We were given a miracle. My family is another blessing. I love my family. I love everything about them, but it was a very long and emotional process to get where we are. It took 4 years and many rounds of fertility to get pregnant with Kennedie. And it took 2 years and many more rounds of fertility to get pregnant With Izaiah. I would sit and watch my friends and family decide to have a baby and in a few months they were pregnant. Although I was so happy for them, I was so sad it didn't work that way for me. But looking back, if I hadn't had the trouble that I had then I wouldn't feel the way I feel right now. Like I have been given another miracle. I'm pregnant! No fertility, no years of waiting. Just like that! I'm not going to lie to you, when I found out I cried! I cried because I just had a baby! I cried because i have a 5 month old son still in the hospital, I cried because I am terrified if my body can handle another pregnancy, but I cried the most because it is such a miracle! All of my fears aside, I'm so excited! I know it sounds crazy, but i feel that it was meant to be. I excepted the fact that we would only have 2 children. We were so blessed to have them. But it goes to show, God does have a plan for me. So I rest in his arms. For now, I am happy, healthy, and blessed once again!